(Thinking of Tim Rundquist)
How odd
Now that I am inescapably
Into my eighties
That I should remember how
Three-score and ten years ago
Stopping with other kids
After school
To jump into South Creek
Where it passed under the road
To swim
Or perhaps only to talk
Full of large ideas
How we stirred
Biblical fragments together
With arithmetic, calculating
When it would be that we
Should it be
Reached three-score and ten
Or if by reason of strength
Four score
It would be 2001
A time impossibly far
From what none of us yet
Called The Great War
Since December 7, 1941
Arriving home from Sunday School
Up the hill from the same creek
I had thought, hearing of Pearl Harbor
That I should die in a war
As young men do
Instead
Now that I am inescapably
Into my eighties
I wonder why I should have to see
Young men die
And like those boys
At the bridge in Summer
Full of large ideas
I have come to believe
That I have been looking too long
In the wrong place for life
And death
Life is an ancient thing
Life is one of the things
That earth is, and does
Here and there
With windows
And it is the windows
That are three-score and ten
Now and then
Before they grow dark again
I do not know when life began
Impossibly long ago, I think
And perhaps even farther away
It is an ancient thing
That we are a part of
For as long as we are
I am Gus and Jennie
Come together
Fragments of what they were
A new window on the world
Of life
And you are such as I
Part of an ancient thing
We are star-stuff
Ordinary stuff of the universe
Crammed into a star
And blown out in new form
And collected again
into earth, and probably earths
Everywhere
Where we have come to life
And conscious life
Able to know what we are
And how lovely it is to be alive
Even knowing
That our own part of being alive
Will not last much more than
Three-score and ten
Or perhaps by reason of good luck
Four score
And then the light in our window
Will go out, though
The whole house will surely shine
Because, as we know
It is a very good thing to be alive
And life is an ancient thing
This thing we love
That is tenacious
And terrible in its desire
To find a way to go on
It is an ancient thing
We are a part of
Star-stuff
When we moved to Minneapolis
I began to walk around Lake Nokomis
Almost three miles
Almost three years
And calculated
As I had done at South Creek
Higher math
In the service of
Lake-level ideas
That I had walked
Three thousand miles
And finding a carp
Up on the walk
One day
Began to wonder
How it had gotten to the Lake
At all
Twelve hundred miles to the Gulf
But at three miles a day
I had walked coast-to-coast
In a thousand days
So to speak
I gave the carp a million years
To go six million feet
Six feet a year
Up the River or the Sea
In generations such as our own
At three miles an hour
Three miles a day
I began to remember songs
Old songs
Humming what once I knew
Looking them up
Until I knew them again
An old man remembering
How it had been
How it is
How long is life
How short a generation
Singing life up from the Gulf
Across America
Around the Lake
It is a kind of song we sing
Alone and together
A love song
A soaring aria
Something silly
A lullaby
Sometimes sad
But not mostly
The hills are alive
With a sound like music
A song we have sung
For a million years
Amazing, Conrad.
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